Danison Twins

Went to check on our Twinsies.

They're doing wonderful.
I have now only 1 Cyst on each side. Which is great! Those cysts are what's keeping the hormones stable until the placenta takes over then they will either pop or dissolve. Their heartbeats we're 150/160.
Baby that had a heartbeat of 150, it was 160 too but seemed like baby had just calmed down.
Lol feisty little one.

Idk what these babies are. Boys/girls or both?
I am not sure, I have a feeling both are boys. We are waiting till birth. :) this is going to be the best surprise ever!
Were so excited!!

We have many prayers sent to heaven for these babies to grow and thrive. We're so TRULY blessed!!
Double time!!

<3 <3

7.4 week belly with Twins after 5 children 

Me and my oldest . She went with me, I was very dehydrated. 

Iv of salene :(

All is well!! I am such a happy blessed momma. I wouldn't want to be anyone else! My life is so awesome! I love all my kids. They're amazing!

bleeding... oh man but the twins are growing!!

I started having some bad pains in my lower stomach and vaginal pains. Like shocks.
I went to the er only to return home. They stop doing ultrasounds at 11pm. :(
So i call my doctor office only to have the oncall doctor tell me there was nothing she can do and that i was disturbing her sleep and this was not an Emergancy! Are you kidding me? I may be losing my babies!!!! Its life or death! As all who know me know, i dont trust doctors who act like they think they know everything and think im an idiot.
I have been treated so badly by this obgyn office.
Anyways, so i just went to bed. I go to my doc office the next day and my doc. Won't even see me. Wont look at my ultrasound and never called me like he was supposed to. He even left work early! Ugh! Doctors make me so mad!!! They dont care about their patients like i think they should.

Anyway, so i took into comfort what good i got from the ultrasound.

My babies both had heartbeats!!! Yay!!
Baby a is 118 and baby b is 119 bpm.
They are growing so thats wonderful!!!

However, the sch got very big! It went right in the middle between the babies. That worries me! Its very big.
I also have 3 cysts on my right ovary and 1 on my left.
Im trying to keep faith and trust God knows what hes doing. I just pray so much we get to keep them!!

Here are the photos from todays ultrasoumd.

I lost Annabelle Elizabeth Danison on Feb. 26, 2015.

Im going to make this short for now.....


I was very stressed. I had an ultrasound and found out we had a beautiful growing baby, and a nasty SCH. Then one day... I begin losing clots and bleeding. I had been spotting and have some bleeding up to this point from the begining!
I went to the doctor the very next morning at 8 weeks and 5 days. She had a heartbeat of 167bpm and doing great. I had a tiny bit of sch left but nothing serious.

The very same night, i was in the car on my way to Ohio and started having bad pains wrapping around my waist and suddenly felt a burst of blood. I stopped and ran into the corner store and into the bathroom. I sit down and here can many clots just falling out.  Then suddenly they stop. I look down and see Anna elle Elizabeth Danison hanging into the toilet from her cord still cobnected to the placenta. I held her. I got to where i was going and took a bath with her and took photos of her. The next morning took a few more. Took her to the funeral home to be cremated. Annabelle was cremated the day before my 28th birthday.  Its so sad. I miss her.

Sch on right... Annabelle on left

When it rains, it pours.

It all started on September 9th, my last period.
September 19th my husband and i, well, you know. BAM BAM! lol.
I immediately knew i was going to be pregnant. I check my cervix and so i knew what it meant when your cervix is wide open!
So, on October 1st i got an obvious BFP. "Positive test" Okay, i couldn't stop testing cause i wanted to be sure my levels were getting stronger.

It took a good week long for them to darken how i wanted them too. I have 2 blood draws done because i was worried about it taking so long for my test line to darken.

My first blood draw was _______ And my second was _____.

That was a 95.5 hour doubling time. I was worried and asked my doctor why it didn't look right. He asked if ive had pregnancy symptoms. I said yes, One sore breast, and i feel my uterus growing. But that was it. I was obviously worried. He said, come in and we will do an ultrasound and check things out. "For my peace of mind".

I went in and we saw a beautiful baby, sizing 7w1d with a heartbeat of 164bpm.

.....Pictures and more in other post.....

im back.... because.... i must write this down!!!!!

I will add my big news tonight, when the kids go to bed. Yay!!!


So..... We lost 2 babies and then had a chemical pregnancy. We got pregnant right after the chemical.

Now were expecting.... Not only 1 baby... BUT TWO BABIES!!!!! WERE HAVING TWINS!!

I Went to the er with bad pains on one side. I was worried about an ectopic pregnancy. So i got my blood taken, urine sample and an ultrasound. The ultrasound confirmed that i had a cyst recently rupture and another one on my ovary.
Then she kept going back and forth and she said "theres two in here" .. twins? No way,.omg omg seriously? Are you serious right now???
I was in complete shock. How lucky i am right now!!!!
This will make 7 children. Yeah, im pretty sure were done. Atleast until we move and buy a larger van.

I thought we were looking at my ovarys.... I know they can look like they have 2 sacs or more bit its really cysts or eggs. So i didnt think much about it till she said it.

Im still in shock. Im so excited but also so scared. I want these babies to be okay. I pray many times a day they are okay and we get to raise them.
I staryed eating all organic and gmo free foods. We have been using less "daily prodects" and started making our own. Like toothpaste, acne scrub, moisterizer much more....


Symptoms:
Normal!
Sore boobs VERY SORE
Night sickness
Bad cramps from having a ton of gas( every morning)
Textured foods are bothering me. Certain textures, like meats meainly.
Major bloating
Major pains in my stomach and vajayjay.

Obsessions:
Fruits, juice, water, and spinach. and my unhealthy obsession since they contain msgs is alo water, which contains pulp. Its so good but high in sugar.


We are making blue prints for the house, adding two more babies spaces. We want to keep them together, sleeping and nap.

Our kids are so excited! Kendra even said "i told you there was two mom" lol
My brother,sister in law and her mom all guessed that we were pregnant with twins. Its funny cause i had so many symptoms even before i should have. (I guess because my hcg levels are so high.  )

Which reminds me.... My hcg levels during this ultrasound was 37,476. Babies sized at 5w3d and 5w5d.

UPDATE..... I STARTED BLEEDING. (NEXT POST).

HACKED

I am so upset. My entire life was in these blogs and my phone was stolen and whoever has it deleted ALL my blog posts. Im so upset, i lost so much stuff that's happened. This blog was made as my personal online diary but now it's gone. It's all gone. Im going through losing a child right now and this is what im having to now deal with while waiting for my baby to be born. This is sick and pathetic. I can't believe this. I do so much for so many people and this is what i got in return. :'(

Lost our Angel

Our sweet precious baby has grown wings.

We were 9 weeks and found out our baby stopped growing at 7w5d. That's when we saw our baby's heart was not working. Although, baby does look a little larger. When our little Riley is born we will be having a memorial at our local park and burying one of our carried away baby's. 

Riley Jae is always going to be honored as our family. Our other baby Charlie Rae was 6 weeks when he/she grew wings. That was in 2011.

We just decided to name our baby. I have another angel who i don't like talking about openly in 2006. 

No baby, no matter the age, It's always hard losing a child.  

God will take care of our Angel. I pray he talks to our baby's about me.Tells them about me. I am happy to know one day when i go to heaven i will have a family up there who will be waiting for me. Knowing god is caring for my babies i know they are very well cared for. 

I am very sad about what is going on. 

My husband and i cried for days after we found out the heartbeat had stopped. 

I had a little bleeding but no pains. No warning, only little bit of blood and that was over in about 3 hours. I didn't even realized i had bleeding till i went to the bathroom. My heart sank, as i have had losses before. It was very hard to see this happen again. I was in denial. Totally in denial!!! I had blood levels tested and several ultrasounds done. My HCG went from 12,112 to 10,012 to 6,500. All in 3 weeks.

Before i lost my baby's i always said "I could never let my baby stay inside me if it were not alive. But after all my losses.... I pray for these baby's to stay with me as long as they can. I don't want them forced to be away from me. My heart still beats for my children wither they breath on earth or in heaven. Theyre still my children and no matter where they live i will always love them!!

I do plan on taking photo's of Riley. I may or may not post them. It depends. I will know when he/she is born. I will also share the birthday once Riley is here on earth. 

My horror turned into trusting in god and his plans. Trusting he know's whats best/right for me. Trusting he has my hand through all of this. I am so lucky to have such a loving God. I am so lucky for my amazing husband who has been here for me at every doc. appt. every er visit and his tears came with mine. For our baby. The love we will both miss. 

Riley, 2 hearts broken, and 5 siblings to miss you. You will be forever with us! <3 We will miss and love you always!

UPDATE:

I have began to start spotting tonight. Riley's heart stopped November 6th 2014. Riley was due June 16th-22nd. (we never did get an exact due date because baby's measurements kept shifting so much. So we will make a better age guess once baby is here.

Next update, will be the announcement of baby Riley Jae's birth. 

I hope everyone has a wonderful week. God bless. <3